28Sept2009-Everything I can say Is ''I CAN'T RELAX!''

Aaron and I now together back! yah!!!

25-08-09 - End of Me,but is still me.just my good in YOU

I HATE IT! MY LIFE,I THOUGHT IT WOULD LIKE OK-AY..... I KNOW WHAT AM I DOING?THE STRESS OF THINKING ABOUT THE SOCIETIES AND PLANNINGS FOR MY FUTURE.. WHY YOU HAVE TO LISTEN THE CRAPS?i have no idea what you guys want from me?
TODAY IS THE DAY,I END IT UP THE ONLINE LIFE-IS NOT BECAUSE OF ESCAPING OR WHATEVER.FOR YOUR INFORMATION: I AM TIRED BEING A PERSON/HUMAN. CAN SOMEONE STOP IT?
I THINK IS THE END OF EVERYTHING,I AM NO LONGER A GOOD GIRL-AS MY PARENTS DICTIONARY.
LOVING SOMEONE AT MY AGE IS REALLY WRONG??
AT LEAST YOU ALL REALIZE I AM MYSELF...
WHY YOU GUYS MIND THINK IF A TEENAGER GOT BF WILL THIS AND THAT!
CAN'T YOU SEE I AM BETTER AND BIGGER?
FOR YOU GUYS MIGHT THINK I AM ESCAPING OR CHANGING TO A GOOD GIRL.
TO SPEAK FRANKLY.. I AM STILL ME.... YOUR THOUGHTS ON ME... CHANGED...
THANKS FOR PROVING TO ME THAT YOU GUYS AIN'T CARE BUT TO JUDGE ME...
IF YOU SAY WHY I HAVE THESE THOUGHTS ...
BY YOUR ACTS AND RUMORS.
IS THE END OF EVERYTHING:
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friendster
and current blog

take care everyone

20-8-2009-I LOVE MALAYSIA! and BUKIT KUDA KLANG

Today is a fabs day!! Cherry(Pei Sze) and I wearing the same ''Baju Kurung'' to school =),i wore blue and she wore Red,this is the 1st time i am wearing it.At first of cause don't get used to it,I am proud to be a Malaysian! and Live in MALAYSIA~!I am so ..... Don't know how to describe... i mean certain people follow what people say but not doing any good stuff,i mean :''they judge and doing nothing,by seeing people do really hardwork and put efforts on it'',and at last people win,they dare to say ''WE'' but actually the ''WE'' included them.But doing things the ''WE" should be.... Me(kersin),Cherry(Pei Sze),Shamala,Dana,Yuva,Anbumoly,Siva.... (others are excluded)because of we're doing,they dare to judge say this and that but doing NOTHING,only orders make them do it.Pityful right?
Q:How can you possible to do that,seeing people doing hardworks but you.......?

Today's event was superB,i felt pathetic those who don't appreciate what school gave us:Which is celebrating malaysia's national day.
Is that very '' Memalukan'' being a malaysian.Remember pals, WITHOUT : TUNKU ABDUL RAHMAN and all those warriors, TRUST ME , there's no YOU or US in MALAYSIA and a country NAMED: MALAYSIA!!!!

Is not proud do say Malaysia's BAD, you should be shame on yourselves because as a Malaysia,you hating Malaysia but you staying in Malaysia.Isn't it unlogical and pathetic???If you don't like... Leave far far and GO far FAR!

Not coming to school,one of the not responsible behaviour,if you say school sucks,don't come to school then for 365 or 366 days,without school and teachers-can you be in what are you today?
You might not know me-is a good thing( because I am strict enough)Idiots.....

I know I do wrong stuff,but having people backs is not a good thing.And of cause,please see again and again is it wrong or right?Get a life ！


-Today was superB again!!! All those performances,i think again and again,I should have a cheongsam ''Chinese Culture'',is shame by not having your own religion culture as a Malaysian.
Malaysia meant a lot to me and TOO much ! I love MALAYSIA!!!! and SMK(P)BUKIT KUDA KLANG!!!

19-8-2009-What's up buddies =)

Well,what's up buddies?Well,currently in a not good mood.I think of the days that how ''THEY'' actually treated me,is not to say i am selfish,but self emotions. =(
Now currently listen to the song:I will be-By avril lavigne and Leona lewis =) is pretty nice if they sing together . haha and just now I nearly cried because I heard a song related with my life-Gotta go my own way-HSM2,
when i hear it , although is an old song,but it meant a lot for me,is honestly not about my ex and so on... sometimes those songs really can get what i meant,is hardly to explain.I think that HS2 is better than others HSMs.Then listen the song-Bet on it!by Troy

For school,nowadays I don't really like the bunch of friends that I join with,now me and Pei Sze is like breaking free,and no need to care about others.But of us having the same opinion. =),we are best friends forever.We share experiences ( funny ones ),we share food =), we share funny stories.WE ARE BEST FRIENDS!FOREVER.JI MUI =) sisters.

Tomorrow my school going to celebrate ''National Day'' the early ones =) after a long talk and decision,Pei sze and I decided to wear baju kurung wee =)

18-8-09-Me and dear Ron's Edit

Isn't it cute and adorable and special =) hahaha Like it by the way =)

18-8-09 Sisters(Angelynn and Kersin)

Sisters =) Angelynn and KerSin-Sisters =) I found this picture somewhere else in Friendster(it was long time ago ) And some edited hahah xD

18-8-09 Today I am quite Happy!

Today our class 4v1-at least they did something,better than talking and judging but doing nothing,its so hard to describe... you know....and currently listen to avril Lavigne's songs,she is my fav. Singer EVER!!! I love her so much!!!! Especially her live version-to tell honestly i can almost catch her live versions tune(it means I can sing it too!)Is a good sign =)
Just now I viewed my old pictures in Friendster,can say so That i changed so much =)
hahahah look better xD
Seriously man!!!
By the way,today my class looks fabs!Happy of it~i am just speechless of the girls that know how to judge but doing anything ><
That will make you speechless...

Today in school,its like so tired,not studying,and keep decorating the class,
one year once =) so make use of it,

Oh ya,just now i've made a very stupid thing which is ''Ｍａｒｒｙ　ｃｅｒｔ'' with Ron dear =)
Try to see these photos it really makes ppl laugh!
btw,i love AVRIL!!! everyone!!!! hahahahaha

I have a great day btw =)
Good luck for the Candidates for PMR,SPM,STPM =)

15-08-2009- Saturday but school days =）

Today is school days,for the replacement of Deepavali..OMG... Now i am currently listening to the song-Jolin's old songs.I think about my childhood( can say so childhood)ＯＨmy ...
When i hear those songs,i feel like having a dream again standing on the stage and sing.Hahaha.... thats my dream for long time ago and also part of my Aim .= ）
Today actually have school,
only 8 people out of 38 students attend...Its a bit....
Out of words,i missed my boy so much! and A lot......
Gotta go soon =)
Miss me ya;

13August2009-I am still not feeling well x(

About yesterday,I cannot believe ( that girl ) shouted at me in class.For no proves and sudden which tell us,that's not a rational doing and thinking.This month is something we called it ''Bulan Merdeka''
Ahhh! Love Malaysia...
Malaysia's ON FIRE xD

Now currently listening to the song:Ashley Tisdale's Last Christmas and Second time around-Lady Gaga

And Missing my dear mom(which is in Segamat right now) She'll be back Saturday ... Awwww
Miss her voice that shouted and me and ignores me xD...
Its a bit of useless but..... You know... family =)

Then of cause,Miss my Aaron dear dear =) , yesterday his dad SMS-ed me...He thought dear dear changed his number or what,then I told him not to worry,just now we just talked now he having his dinner..
So pity,without me beside him,he is eating Instant Noodles for Dinner...( So pity.. Lack of Calcium ah dear dear =( )
Then .... Nowadays Keep studying,
FOCUS in the something which i am not really good at.
But at least I overcome... =) Then i pushing myself until the BEST
I know I can,without effort nothing will be done at last =)


Then whatelse,
I am so happy having a nice friend like Pei Sze,I don't know how to describe about her,
Someone which will accompany you and help you.... ( A lot more xxxx )
Miss my MOM! Everybody!
Hope Genie, and Jie Sun will be cured... by the Influenza A!!!

Then whatelse... too much to write ^^
I doing housework when mom not at house,you know I am a shorty ... I have to climb a step and reach the washing machine,is like the whale swallowing a car ( Oh My Gawd.. a good description)
hahaa...then in my sister's room,which a lot of Mosquitoes....Trust me..I am a Mosquito Hunter...I hunt all the mosq. in my sister's room.Which uses dad's Mosquito Raquet,I can see them in pain...which the sound ''Piak... Piak...'' and disappear ( AWWW )



hahahah
tata =)
Gotta do something ....
Miss ya
Love,Ker Sin

11August2009-time fly so fast =)

Soon,Aaron and I are being together 3 Months already,
Its so Excited!!!
Now currently hearing the song - Maneater by Nelly Furtado..
That song really calms me a lot.
I just aaron dear's old picture,is like so funny =)
Hahaha..
He look a bit of weird and funny last time,
Now he is much much much MORE better....Makes me wanna roar!!(Now)

Well,
school days are OK-I can say its okay,maybe Its a bit stressed,
so I don't wanna think of other thing else.
Making my brain insane,
I miss my boy =)

Time go so fast,
as I didn't realize =)
I wanna go into Musics,and Live with aaron..
OMG
i gained my weight!No wonder I felt a bit of weighty!!!!!
OMG!!!
how?!


Btw , I hope my cousin - JieSun and Genie will be safe...
Beware of H1N1 , the hazy weather making people sick,so all of you-please drink more water =)
God Bless Everybody.

1August-2August 2009-Happy

These two days was fantastic,1st of all that Aerobithon of our school going so well and cool.Can't forget those scene. =) happiness moments . And Kinabalu (our school house team) got number 2,we enjoyed every single moment with their shouts and impressive. I am like so happy =)
Although we get number 2 is not a big deal we cant get 1st,but the team spirit among us all .

And Sunday,me and my dear gone out together,is hard to explained.Is like the 1st time i traveled so far with my boy,is only the KL area.But for me is a big huge place project.We do enjoy ourselves,a bit tiring but worth it =)
We ate ice creams,play computer games together.And a lot more.Only for one day a lot of things happened =) Is happy thing of cause.

I miss his hugs =)
Warm hugs
Btw,these days is superb =)
I can't hardly explain the scene but...
one thing,
wherever I go,there he'll be.....

30-July-07 I cant really tell whats happening

Today,1st-ly I am happy because at the Audition of Aerobicthon(School Project) and then we get number 1～！！！ I am happy of it! Then today asked me a weird question : I heard people say that you have a lot of Boy Friends in School...I was like blanked out...
There's few things you guys gotta know.
1.I am in girl school
2.I don't join guys.I mean got.But less not bad guys.
3.I don't simply accept guy(especially play ones)

I was like speechless,got Bf = change into bad girls meh???
I really speechless why adults would think like that?
I know they try to be protective but words they say is not protecting but .... doubting .
Is like not respecting people and trusting people...


From a woman I respected and felt proud,maybe modernization or.... think too much.
I really got frustrated.

And talked about that Alvin.Lee,That time i was stupid and like drunk in the pool of guys.
I am unable to think rationally,cause that time i was like so stupid.
He owe me 20 bucks,then he said like...
after he gave me the money and said don't contact anymore.
Then i was like I wanting to do that ages ago dude, does not care if you get good result or bad.By the way who cares,yeah- some people cares.But like this you're not respecting.

I am currently making a new website =)

www.kersinsecrettone.piczo.com
Check this website if you want =)
Is under construction ×D

15-07-2009：Dear2's birthday Happy birthday!

14-07-09:My mood are OKAY

Well,I am Pretty ok-ay with my exam results!I just failed to Mathematics Stuff(the 1,2,3s)
But I will over come.
So sad that MJ died,I keep on listen to his song ( Heal the world ), now currently listening to Britney Spears.She sings well in Live too!!!! I want to be the next her!hahaha Dreaming' I know I will.
And about my results,I am pretty happy about it,I am happy that I passed some of the subjects that I failed.I hate TRAITORS!By the way I don wanna talk about it,frustrated.I miss my dear dear so much!
I keep on worrying about all those nonsense like Financial stupidity stuff,
and just now mom's friend,came to office,
Oh my!
Her baby boy is so CUTE!I have the chance to hug him!
Now listening to the song (takin' back my love)
I love dancing and Singing,my stage..
Catch me later ya``

9-7-2009-I am sad!

I have no idea,
what I am thinking is not like what other people think of.
When I think of it,
I can actually tell,I thought I have a very easy communicate with my mom and dad ,
but somehow,it actually tells me ''They are not proud and happy.''
And they will never be happy of it.

I am not crazy of My boy friend AARON,and I did plan of what to do next time,
in the future,in the presence.
But somehow,what I've planned,of cause is not only the world of Aaron and I,
but also my Mom and dad,myself,study,and my other stuff.

But somehow,what my parents will think of is:
1.I won't finish until form5(because I will be pregnant,and it is impossible)
2.I crazy about guys because i keep calling guys.(is actually Aaron most probaly)
3.I am not studying because I keep thinking of guys.(I dare to say is not,because i divide my time)
4.They say I won't study.(I admit to you guys,actually i do love study,I can,Is just the conflict thoughts of people towards me.)
5.They say I simply use money.(I admit last time i do,but what they can't see.I am starting to be changed.)
6.They say they want face because my relatives said they saw my picture and Aaron(we are close),then people say this and that.(what I can say,I wont say its common,but is just a PICTURE-although we took it together but we ain't doing anything)
7.I AM BAD( I can truly say-they have negative thoughts on me)
8.I brought Aaron back home(I brought him back because I respect them and I want them to know who i am hang out with!)
9.I always waste a lot of money(next time I don't use their money-la!but too bad I am not working,if I am.I can bet I wont beg and see their faces.)


Just now mom bought me KFC,at about 4 something,
then until Now i ain't eating.
I think its the end of putting high hopes on my parents about what I want.
I better off alone.

My Future Dream Projects

My 1st Song.and.Dance Dream projects Records.(If you seek amy-Britney Spears)
My 2nd Song.and.Dance Dream Projects(Piece of Me-Britney Spears)


My 1st two aiming for my Future dream projects,
and of cause,I am not just aiming that!I also thought of my families.
Ahhhh
They gave me the biggest support.I love you guys!
Wait for my version of these videos.

About Me and INTRO

This is Me(KerSin)and my Darling(Aaron)My Life flows with our LOVE and Future Plans.I am save within his hands.

My Man(Aaron)


He is so much wonderful in my Life,
A guy who perfect the most perfect.
I have no doubt of saying ''No'' to him.
He,
Is one most important in my life.
Without him,
there is doesnt exist.
Jenny.Tey.Ker.Sin and being who I am.

Aaron Soon Ban Loong(although he doesnt like his name）
but that name proves (Who is He?)

Btw WHO　ＡＭ　I？？
Ｔｈｅ　ＢＥＦＯＲＥＳ




Ｔｈｅ　ＮＯＷ




Ｗｅｌｌ，ｙｅａｈ，ｔｈｉｓ　ｉｓ　Ｍｅ．
Ｋｅｒ　Ｓｉｎ　ａｋａ　Ｊｅｎｎｙ.
The past I am wild,naughty,rock,young...


Now I am standing.
By myself.
Trying to overcome how the reality world treats ME =)

I.am.ME

2-7-2009,Mood:Leave me alone

Today I had a very unimagined day,I thought,My aunt would like O-K with all those pictures(that me and aaron) took.Then now I am like burst in tears,I thought I wouldnt want to know all those Aaron' past.
But just now i am too bored so I flipped on Aaron's frienster comment.I saw he and some girls like you know ''Flirting'' words.I was like.... I don't know anything,my brain gone blanked.Then my tears started to dripped,then I go on Avril's song-My happy Ending(I hear it everything when I am super-sad).I don't know what my tears dripped?!
Then what I get from Imeem,My Happy Ending was like only 30-seconds.
So I changed the song to Leave me alone-The Veronicas.
I remember how strong am i to defeat Love,
I am not afraid of Love,or got hurt.
But after I come to someone I really love,Aaron Soon Ban Loong.
I do really care about him,but I just don't want to know what's his past.
I don't know why all those keep disturbing me.
I've tried to act like nothing happened.I had promised Aaron not to think too much,I am not!
Is just our Love,like an act of A story,a mysterious moments.

I couldn't believe that he and I actually are together.
I was like,before I am fall，I am tough.
After I am with Aaron I found my strength back.
But my strength normally found my old-self(A girl that rejects every guys,and don't give a damn in anything,a girl who always fight for the truth and reality instead of DREAMS)

I can imagine if one day I found my old-self.
I may not be with Aaron.
But Aaron and viewed the other part of myself,that I am courage to live with PEACE.
I am facing all those unknowns and suddens.
The stress facing me as if life is going to break down.
If not,by right now.
I may not know the other part of Life may goes by my bare hands.

Before I am with Aaron.
I aiming myself to be a singer and continue my Band.
Before I am with Aaron.
I admit I do being boy-ish ,I do play skateboard,wear those boys stuff and act boy-ish.
Before I am with Aaron.
I have high thoughts of standing on the stage and enjoy.





What Aaron gave me,the sense of Being a Human living part in Earth.
This sounds crazy,as if he didn't realize,
But I knew these in another angle.
I can see through those angles that people doesnt realize.

Now，
I am currently listening to Leave me alone.
I remember last time I am so damn tough,I use words to fight back those pains.
But now,
no matter how i tried,
I got down.

But i found my music stage and pulls me up again and face the worlds again.
I don't mind about past or rumors or what I've done.
The second thoughts of my Mind,
I wanted to be a Rock Star.
I want to be Solo or either Band=)
(Illusion Seperated)what I named for my band.Hahaha ... is actually a game.


btw,back to Aaron.
I do really love Aaron.
He said he want me to be who I am.
Well,a part of me.
A party girl,A stage girl.I don always show em' to people.
I am now an ordinary girl.
I don't want to think of it anymore.

It gave me full of stress.


Now i realize,
last time i do say
Guys are nothing,i can without them.

Now:
I can't live without:
1.Aaron(4Ls)
2.Love(Friends and Family)
3.Music
4.Stage


They meant so much to me,in a single second turn.