30-July-07 I cant really tell whats happening

Today,1st-ly I am happy because at the Audition of Aerobicthon(School Project) and then we get number 1～！！！ I am happy of it! Then today asked me a weird question : I heard people say that you have a lot of Boy Friends in School...I was like blanked out...
There's few things you guys gotta know.
1.I am in girl school
2.I don't join guys.I mean got.But less not bad guys.
3.I don't simply accept guy(especially play ones)

I was like speechless,got Bf = change into bad girls meh???
I really speechless why adults would think like that?
I know they try to be protective but words they say is not protecting but .... doubting .
Is like not respecting people and trusting people...


From a woman I respected and felt proud,maybe modernization or.... think too much.
I really got frustrated.

And talked about that Alvin.Lee,That time i was stupid and like drunk in the pool of guys.
I am unable to think rationally,cause that time i was like so stupid.
He owe me 20 bucks,then he said like...
after he gave me the money and said don't contact anymore.
Then i was like I wanting to do that ages ago dude, does not care if you get good result or bad.By the way who cares,yeah- some people cares.But like this you're not respecting.

I am currently making a new website =)

www.kersinsecrettone.piczo.com
Check this website if you want =)
Is under construction ×D

15-07-2009：Dear2's birthday Happy birthday!

14-07-09:My mood are OKAY

Well,I am Pretty ok-ay with my exam results!I just failed to Mathematics Stuff(the 1,2,3s)
But I will over come.
So sad that MJ died,I keep on listen to his song ( Heal the world ), now currently listening to Britney Spears.She sings well in Live too!!!! I want to be the next her!hahaha Dreaming' I know I will.
And about my results,I am pretty happy about it,I am happy that I passed some of the subjects that I failed.I hate TRAITORS!By the way I don wanna talk about it,frustrated.I miss my dear dear so much!
I keep on worrying about all those nonsense like Financial stupidity stuff,
and just now mom's friend,came to office,
Oh my!
Her baby boy is so CUTE!I have the chance to hug him!
Now listening to the song (takin' back my love)
I love dancing and Singing,my stage..
Catch me later ya``

9-7-2009-I am sad!

I have no idea,
what I am thinking is not like what other people think of.
When I think of it,
I can actually tell,I thought I have a very easy communicate with my mom and dad ,
but somehow,it actually tells me ''They are not proud and happy.''
And they will never be happy of it.

I am not crazy of My boy friend AARON,and I did plan of what to do next time,
in the future,in the presence.
But somehow,what I've planned,of cause is not only the world of Aaron and I,
but also my Mom and dad,myself,study,and my other stuff.

But somehow,what my parents will think of is:
1.I won't finish until form5(because I will be pregnant,and it is impossible)
2.I crazy about guys because i keep calling guys.(is actually Aaron most probaly)
3.I am not studying because I keep thinking of guys.(I dare to say is not,because i divide my time)
4.They say I won't study.(I admit to you guys,actually i do love study,I can,Is just the conflict thoughts of people towards me.)
5.They say I simply use money.(I admit last time i do,but what they can't see.I am starting to be changed.)
6.They say they want face because my relatives said they saw my picture and Aaron(we are close),then people say this and that.(what I can say,I wont say its common,but is just a PICTURE-although we took it together but we ain't doing anything)
7.I AM BAD( I can truly say-they have negative thoughts on me)
8.I brought Aaron back home(I brought him back because I respect them and I want them to know who i am hang out with!)
9.I always waste a lot of money(next time I don't use their money-la!but too bad I am not working,if I am.I can bet I wont beg and see their faces.)


Just now mom bought me KFC,at about 4 something,
then until Now i ain't eating.
I think its the end of putting high hopes on my parents about what I want.
I better off alone.

My Future Dream Projects

My 1st Song.and.Dance Dream projects Records.(If you seek amy-Britney Spears)
My 2nd Song.and.Dance Dream Projects(Piece of Me-Britney Spears)


My 1st two aiming for my Future dream projects,
and of cause,I am not just aiming that!I also thought of my families.
Ahhhh
They gave me the biggest support.I love you guys!
Wait for my version of these videos.

About Me and INTRO

This is Me(KerSin)and my Darling(Aaron)My Life flows with our LOVE and Future Plans.I am save within his hands.

My Man(Aaron)


He is so much wonderful in my Life,
A guy who perfect the most perfect.
I have no doubt of saying ''No'' to him.
He,
Is one most important in my life.
Without him,
there is doesnt exist.
Jenny.Tey.Ker.Sin and being who I am.

Aaron Soon Ban Loong(although he doesnt like his name）
but that name proves (Who is He?)

Btw WHO　ＡＭ　I？？
Ｔｈｅ　ＢＥＦＯＲＥＳ




Ｔｈｅ　ＮＯＷ




Ｗｅｌｌ，ｙｅａｈ，ｔｈｉｓ　ｉｓ　Ｍｅ．
Ｋｅｒ　Ｓｉｎ　ａｋａ　Ｊｅｎｎｙ.
The past I am wild,naughty,rock,young...


Now I am standing.
By myself.
Trying to overcome how the reality world treats ME =)

I.am.ME

2-7-2009,Mood:Leave me alone

Today I had a very unimagined day,I thought,My aunt would like O-K with all those pictures(that me and aaron) took.Then now I am like burst in tears,I thought I wouldnt want to know all those Aaron' past.
But just now i am too bored so I flipped on Aaron's frienster comment.I saw he and some girls like you know ''Flirting'' words.I was like.... I don't know anything,my brain gone blanked.Then my tears started to dripped,then I go on Avril's song-My happy Ending(I hear it everything when I am super-sad).I don't know what my tears dripped?!
Then what I get from Imeem,My Happy Ending was like only 30-seconds.
So I changed the song to Leave me alone-The Veronicas.
I remember how strong am i to defeat Love,
I am not afraid of Love,or got hurt.
But after I come to someone I really love,Aaron Soon Ban Loong.
I do really care about him,but I just don't want to know what's his past.
I don't know why all those keep disturbing me.
I've tried to act like nothing happened.I had promised Aaron not to think too much,I am not!
Is just our Love,like an act of A story,a mysterious moments.

I couldn't believe that he and I actually are together.
I was like,before I am fall，I am tough.
After I am with Aaron I found my strength back.
But my strength normally found my old-self(A girl that rejects every guys,and don't give a damn in anything,a girl who always fight for the truth and reality instead of DREAMS)

I can imagine if one day I found my old-self.
I may not be with Aaron.
But Aaron and viewed the other part of myself,that I am courage to live with PEACE.
I am facing all those unknowns and suddens.
The stress facing me as if life is going to break down.
If not,by right now.
I may not know the other part of Life may goes by my bare hands.

Before I am with Aaron.
I aiming myself to be a singer and continue my Band.
Before I am with Aaron.
I admit I do being boy-ish ,I do play skateboard,wear those boys stuff and act boy-ish.
Before I am with Aaron.
I have high thoughts of standing on the stage and enjoy.





What Aaron gave me,the sense of Being a Human living part in Earth.
This sounds crazy,as if he didn't realize,
But I knew these in another angle.
I can see through those angles that people doesnt realize.

Now，
I am currently listening to Leave me alone.
I remember last time I am so damn tough,I use words to fight back those pains.
But now,
no matter how i tried,
I got down.

But i found my music stage and pulls me up again and face the worlds again.
I don't mind about past or rumors or what I've done.
The second thoughts of my Mind,
I wanted to be a Rock Star.
I want to be Solo or either Band=)
(Illusion Seperated)what I named for my band.Hahaha ... is actually a game.


btw,back to Aaron.
I do really love Aaron.
He said he want me to be who I am.
Well,a part of me.
A party girl,A stage girl.I don always show em' to people.
I am now an ordinary girl.
I don't want to think of it anymore.

It gave me full of stress.


Now i realize,
last time i do say
Guys are nothing,i can without them.

Now:
I can't live without:
1.Aaron(4Ls)
2.Love(Friends and Family)
3.Music
4.Stage


They meant so much to me,in a single second turn.