9-7-2009-I am sad!

I have no idea,
what I am thinking is not like what other people think of.
When I think of it,
I can actually tell,I thought I have a very easy communicate with my mom and dad ,
but somehow,it actually tells me ''They are not proud and happy.''
And they will never be happy of it.

I am not crazy of My boy friend AARON,and I did plan of what to do next time,
in the future,in the presence.
But somehow,what I've planned,of cause is not only the world of Aaron and I,
but also my Mom and dad,myself,study,and my other stuff.

But somehow,what my parents will think of is:
1.I won't finish until form5(because I will be pregnant,and it is impossible)
2.I crazy about guys because i keep calling guys.(is actually Aaron most probaly)
3.I am not studying because I keep thinking of guys.(I dare to say is not,because i divide my time)
4.They say I won't study.(I admit to you guys,actually i do love study,I can,Is just the conflict thoughts of people towards me.)
5.They say I simply use money.(I admit last time i do,but what they can't see.I am starting to be changed.)
6.They say they want face because my relatives said they saw my picture and Aaron(we are close),then people say this and that.(what I can say,I wont say its common,but is just a PICTURE-although we took it together but we ain't doing anything)
7.I AM BAD( I can truly say-they have negative thoughts on me)
8.I brought Aaron back home(I brought him back because I respect them and I want them to know who i am hang out with!)
9.I always waste a lot of money(next time I don't use their money-la!but too bad I am not working,if I am.I can bet I wont beg and see their faces.)


Just now mom bought me KFC,at about 4 something,
then until Now i ain't eating.
I think its the end of putting high hopes on my parents about what I want.
I better off alone.